amanda....im so sorry i havent been able to call you in the last couple of days..so so sorry.  just been busy trying to do my stupid shit for finals coming up...but yeh...i know thats not an excuse.  you needed me the most and i wasnt there for you......please dont do something stupid...i would never ever forgive myself if something happened to you....i understand if your mad or watever but dam girl....please promise me you wont do something stupid.  I LOVE YOU AMANDA....i dunno what ill do if you werent here.  your my cousin // blood // my best friend and i would never ever look at you differently or down on you.  dont ever think that...you know you can always come to me for anything no matter wat...ill always be there for you!! ....

..........i miss michael .....